Back! :)

SUNshine is back in good old KL. Penang was really fun and I really enjoyed myself. But there’s no place like home. Glad to be back!

I’ve got so much to share about Penang! All the fun stuff we did like flying a kite, parasailing and of course, our little adventures in finding food! And ya ya…our posting at the Emergency Department also of course. we’ve learnt a lot.

I’ve got loads of pictures that I wish I can upload and talk about, but SUNshine is really gearing up for our trip to Medan. It’s going to be so exciting and adventurous! I’ve already got the schedule that was planned out for us and it’s awesome!

It’s amazing how things are falling into place. There’s just so much of new things for me to learn. It’s scary but exciting.

There’s also one amazing thing that happened to SUNshine this week. I lost appetite! I think we ate too much in Penang. I just wanna puke when I see food! It takes a long time for me to feel hungry and even when I’m hungry, I can’t quite eat much. Sometimes 1 bite is enough to make me feel full. And I crave for fruit juices and fresh vegetables. Anything else makes me wanna puke. And yes…even coffee and my favourite breakfast! Haha… I sure hope this goes on forever! Hahahaha….But err…yeah…I sure hope I don’t have cancer. =_=

Tomorrow is going to be a scary day for SUNshine. For some reasons, I just don’t like going to banks and dealing with money. I like having loads of money, but I don’t like it if I’ve gotta manage money that is not mine. Haha… But I guess I’ve gotta learn this at some point of my life and the earlier, the better.

More planning, more calculating, more imagining, more thinking, more praying, more learning.

I’m lovin’ it!

The test

The beautiful chirping of the birds greeted her as if ushering her into a brand new day. The warm sunshine kissed her cheeks gently but was a sore to her eyes the moment she took a peeked at the clock.

Ah…what a beautiful morning! With no worries about rushing to work and knowing that wonderful breakfast is served on the table carved a smile on her face.

She sat up a little to peep out the window only to crash right down on the bed again. “Let’s just sleep in a little more”, she thought to herself. They did work hard the night before and deserve to sleep in a little more this morning anyway.

She began to give some thoughts to the events that had happened the past few weeks. What fabulous weeks! A time to have a great break, a wonderful time of meeting new friends, and a time when she has done things she never thought she would and has experienced moments she never had the chance to encounter. Those were perfect to distract her from another goal she has promised to achieve while she’s away. And yes, she thought she did a brilliant job in achieving it.

She was about to give herself a pat on the back when suddenly she realized something odd is churning in her heart. It was a sudden rush of wind of fear and a wave of nervousness that swept across her soul. How odd! Is she psycho or schizo? One moment she was smiling away, having the peace to sleep in and another moment, she has a panic attack! Where did that feeling come from?!

“You are nervous about meeting him again”, a voice in her mind whispered.

“Why should I? I did well the past few weeks, didn’t I?”, she argued.

“That’s because you were not seeing him and you had exciting things to distract you,”.

“But I did improve. I thought of him less and I don’t miss him as much. And I’m perfectly happy without him,”

“Then why are you so scared to face him soon?”

 Ah crap! The voice may sound a little judgmental but there is some truth in it. Why is she so scared and nervous about going home? Why is she so afraid of meeting him again? Why is she thinking of ways to avoid him as much as possible and at the same time, thinking of ways to talk to him as naturally as possible? How will it be if their eyes meet again? Will their eyes ever meet again?

Would it be better to see him hand in hand with another girl? Will that give her more peace? Or will that tear her heart apart? What if she breaks down and cries? What if she reacts in a rude way and storms off?

“OK. Fine. I’ll just stay away,” she thought to herself, hoping that will conclude the battle in her mind, first thing in the morning.

As much as she is trying to deny the very existence of this thought in her mind, she knows exactly why it is happening. The real test to judge if her goal has been achieved was not the period of time when she was away, it is when she returns and meets him again. That will be the real test.

As much as she knows things have died down so much they are 6 feet underground and impossible to be resurrected, it doesn’t guarantee her reaction and feelings.

Now she knows why she is so scared.

Back in Sunny Land

SUNshine is back in Sunny Land!

I’m really beginning to love the hospital I’m doing attachment in right now! There’s this really competent (and pretty!) doctor who comes to the A&E to do reviews and she has been so generous in teaching us (and it’s NOT her job!) She can choose to ignore us! And today, we just found out that she’s our super senior! She graduated from our med school! Cool or what?! SUNshine suddenly feel so hopeful!

The past few days were as usual for SUNshine. Got up early, go hospital, see interesting stuff and learn, then go find food! Haha….

Here are some random pictures that I took:

This happens when there’s not enough wheelchairs in the hospital or when the budget is low! Haha…Ironically, on the day I took this pic, it was featured in a local newspaper. Giggles….

The first half of today was fun! We actually used this programme that trains us on what to do during an emergency. So, we gotta decide what to do and there’ll be a tutorial at the end to tell us if we’ve passed or failed and what we’ve done wrong or should have done which we didn’t. Cool! But the room was freezing cold!!!!! A medical assistant offered to let us use it. See why I super love the staff in this hospital?

 

We decided to go out for lunch today! Hehe…This shop was actually featured on Ho Chiak! and we wanted to try. So, we went all the way hoping to have it for dinner yesterday. And to our disappointment, the shop was closed. The boss who happened to be there told us that they are only opened from 8am to 2.30pm. They serve superb spicy and sour fish noodle and steamed hor fun. Super yummy!

But thanks to the lunch, we missed an important experience at the A&E. The moment we reached back, we realise that one patient just passed away and we missed the chance to do CPR and resuscitate and all. Not that we wish people will die so that we can practise, but we do need to learn. It’s important!

This week is a little emo at the A&E. We had a little toddler who came in with brain injury after an accident. His mom died on the spot and his dad was injured. He was all alone at the hospital. The nurses actually stood one corner and wept for him! SUNshine was tough! I didn’t cry!

Yesterday we had a healthy, young lady who suddenly collapsed and lost consciousnesss. CT brain showed that she had severe bleeding in her brain. It’s probably an aneurysm that ruptured. How sudden!

That made me think a little today on the way back home. I’m healthy and sunny and bummy (haha!), so was my patient. What if I have an aneurysm or an accident or a sudden death? Will the people that I love know that I really loved them? I gave that some thought.

I’m pretty sure my family knows how much I love them and how much I know I’m blessed to have such an awesome family. But I wonder if my friends know that I love them? I wonder if those that are close to me know that they are indeed a class above the rest to me..that they are special.

This week, SUNshine also read “The Choice” by Nicholas Sparks. I read it cos there were conflicting comments from 2 of my friends who read it. One said it was exhilirating and exciting! Another one say it’s a mushy love story. Haha… It was full of cliches but I must say the author is a superb writer! Love the way he described and arranged the story.

But it did set me to think about issues about relationships and marriage. And yeah..what would I do in the name of true love? How would I response to difficult situations in the name of love? And what if the one I love end up in a coma? How would I decide? Hhhmmm…..

Tough eh?

Whatever it is, maybe SUNshine is away from home. Kinda miss home and I guess it does us good once in a while. It’ll probably make us appreciate the things we so easily take for granted. Sometimes, it’s the people that we love the most whom we treat the worst cos we take things for granted, or maybe because we are vulnerable to them.

Oh yeah..some happy news! Things are really working out for our Medan trip! The funds and sponsorships are coming in! Believing for more! It’s simply awesome! Will release more details when things are confirmed and more settled!

Stay tuned!

Perhaps love

She was randomly scouting the crowd when suddenly an unexpected familiar face caught her attention

What a pleasant surprise

He was smiling and laughing, talking away

 That was all she needed to know: that he is happy

She didn’t need to talk to him or spend time with him. She’ll probably be tongue-tied anyway

She would rather watch him from afar, to watch his moves, his smile, his laughter. What joy!

As long as he is happy and he is fine, she’s happy too.

She didn’t expect herself to feel or react this way.

Perhaps this is love.

 

Will their eyes ever meet again?

Perhaps the next time she watches him, he will have a wider smile, a louder laughter

Perhaps the next time she watches him, he will have another hand in his

Even then, she will be happy

Perhaps this is love.

 

If this is true love, why would she only watch from afar?

Wouldn’t she rather walk beside him, rather than behind him?

Wouldn’t she rather find the hands in his are indeed hers?

One truth moved her to step further away each day

That she does not hold the key

That brought the joy which carved that smile on his face

Perhaps this is love.

Joy :)

It’s pretty late now but SUNshine still wanna blog cos she’s happy.

I went to my favourite hang out place today. Was a little emotional and upset thanks to all the hiccups she had, but truly my favourite hang out place is a place happy enough to cheer me up!

I’ve been to that place for the past 4 years plus, but today is different. It looks new! Hehe…

Service was awesome! My mind was completely blown away when I heard what my buddies in Moscow are doing! Nuts man! Great job guys!

Then it was hang out time! Hehehehe….Had dinner with my boss and yacked a little before heading back to church to wait for KK. While waiting, I was just bumming around taking some random pics.

 

Wah..my friend is really weird for wearing such glasses! :S

I’ll call you smart if you can guess who these 2 people are correctly!

Coffee looks like she’s posing! Haha…glamour pose!

I realise it’s not easy to take nice pics with Coffee cos she keeps moving! Haha…Kudos to WTL for being able to take so many nice shots of her and with her!

I like this! Aawww…..

Finally KK came back and tada! He brought a surprise for me!

It was in this bag:

when I opened the bag, I saw another bag:

Squeals! I kinda know what it is already. when I opened this bag, I saw a box:

Finally! The item inside is:

Squeals! The latest scent from Body Shop! Lalalalalala…. And I like it! Hehe…Thanks heaps! Hehe…I love surprises and it’s greater when the surprise is something I like!

After that , I had to wait for KK to finish before we can go for our “mission”. Hehe….Fun!

Yay! Another product from Body Shop. I don’t mind more…I want body lotion and body shampoo! Those are my fav! Unfortunately my favourite scent is limited edition in Singapore only. It’s apple blossom. Can’t get it here in Malaysia.

Yay! SUNshine sure feels sunny But yeah…kangen banget sama lo dong. Kapan lo pulang? Kapan bisa bersua? Kapan bisa omong?

The greatest

Things will work out for us. I just know it.

Now remain these three: hope, faith and love. But the greatest is love.

That teaches me one thing. I gotta hope, I gotta have faith, but above all, I must love more.

It’ll be a beautiful journey ahead.

Sunny in KL :)

Aahh…SUNshine is back in good old KL! Feels good to be back but it’s gonna be a busy weekend!

Before I rattle on about my weekend, let me rattle about the past few days in Sunny Land.

Posting at the Emergency Department (ED) is really fun! We hear loads of funny stories, see a great variety of cases and see loads of drama And I’ve never loved clerking psychotic patients as much as in the ED because they are really psychotic at that time and give you really genuine history, unlike those that are already “calmed” and “back to their senses” in the wards. But there are emotional and critical moments that made me reflect a lot on being a competent doctor and how sacrificial the job really is. But generally, things are not as dramatic and emotional as we see on TV. ED people gotta be calm and keep our cool to make good and quick decisions you see.

Sometimes we see many critical cases at the same time and we gotta work fast! Especially during the peak hours in the morning! But sometimes, it’s so quiet we’ll sit around checking out the drugs and get familiar with the equipment that are used in the ED. So that it’ll be a reflex when there’s an emergency: what to use, how to use, where to take, etc. When we’re really, really bored, this is what we do:

High flow oxygen please! Patient is dying!!!

See the magic of oxygen? Hahahaha…Neh..we were learning how to apply mask properly k?

We finally found good food! Haha…that’s cos we worked hard enough! Haha…After our gruelling and tiring day at the Emergency Department, this is what we do:

Haha…yup! Find food using the map! We sesat a lot! But it was really fun! Hahaha…

And yes, persistence and patience has its fruit and its fruit is sweet! We finally found really good food!

We found really good laksa and cendol near Jalan Penang.

Da laksa shop!

Still the shop. Haha…

Da cendol stall

The yummy-licious cendol!

See how much we enjoyed it?

The yummy-licious laksa!

See how much we loved the laksa? Sapu habis!

The next day, we went to jalan-jalan cari makan again. And yes…this time we found the best chao kuay teow in Penang! It’s at Lorong Selamat, near Jalan Macalister.

This is the stall. Just recognise the aunty and her glasses k? And she uses charcoal for the fire, not gas.

Yummy yummy! Really delicious! But pricey man. RM5.50 for small, RM6.50 for medium and RM7.50 for large. This is medium.

Top that up with ice kacang. Yummy yummy!

Needless to say, SUNshine put on weight. I think. Haih…we did try to lose the calories we gain by swimming and jogging k? But sometimes, we just nap. Haha…bummers! Someone misses his dear so much, he planned a trip for her in Penang:

Uncle CS doing research!

Wah…Uncle so serious!

Last night SUNshine hitched a ride from people she doesn’t know back to KL. Scary or adventurous? Haha..OK la. One girl in the car happens to be a good friend of my room mate in Penang and I’ve met her before. Not that bad eh?

It’ll be a busy busy weekend for SUNshine. Went with Mom to the clinic today and she’s doing alright and has been discharged from Ortho clinic! Yay! Gotta practise violin later on, settle some letters, make some phone calls, go for service and catch up with some people and go with someone on a special mission to win someone’s heart! Aahh..this is fun! Tomorow SUNshine has to meet some sponsors, play violin at a wedding (nervous! I don’t wanna spoil someone’s wedding you see!). Then on Monday, SUNshine will head back to Sunny Land.

I love being young and wild, travelling places, seeing things I’ve never seen, experiencing moments I’ve never encountered before and meeting people I’ve never met before. It keeps me alive! I realise there’s just so much more to learn and discover in life, not just in medical practice, but in life itself!

I never knew how people handle disasters in a country, I never knew how to handle a psychotic patient who is HIV positive and threaten to poke you with a glass tainted with his blood if he doesn’t get his drug, I never knew how to deal with businessmen, I never knew how to handle accounts and tax stuff, I never knew how to handle documents legally, I never knew how to bum around at a completely new place with my friends and sometimes with strangers. Life is fun! And issues in life are so real and it’s crucial to face them and sort them out before it snowballs and crush your future. Aahh…life is exciting and fun!

But it will be so much more fun if I could go through it and share it with someone. Haih..can’t help but to wonder what’s going on. It’s either something is turning bad, or he is just plain rude. SUNshine don’t tolerate people who do not reply messages and phone calls too well. I’ve been taught that way you see. At least all the excitement is keeping me busy and distracted. And yes…thanks to my buddy who calls/SMS me everyday or every other day, I know what’s going on in KL. For that, I’m grateful to him.

Stay tuned for more updates.

Still hoping…

SUNshine is scared. While she’s excited for the things ahead, she’s really scared!

Time really has the habit of slipping away eh? And SUNshine still doesn’t know what to do.

Sigh…time to think more, work more and pray even more. Sigh.

I really don’t know how to sort this out this time. God help! :S

Let’s hope this weekend will help.

tell me how

how on heaven or earth 2 lives that are completely different ever join as one?

while she goes east, he stays west. when he happens to go east, she moves back to west.

isn’t it ironic?

she really wonders how they will be able to start talking after this. things really are getting weirder….she knows things will never be the same after this. yet everyone is suppose to pretend that everything is normal. sigh.

yet..she misses him.

Day 5 in Sunny Land

Today is Day 5 SUNshine is in Sunny Land. Hehe…And we’re still bumming around looking for good food!

On Monday, we had to go to this place to get our official letter for our posting. If not, we’ll be illegal! Haha…

And SUNshine must say we were all pleasantly surprise by the service and efficiency! Seriously…

We managed to get our letters and even our dear friend whose letter was sent in late got his processed immediately! Not bad eh…

We then headed to the hospital. Oh man…finding a parking lot was crazy! As expected la…Hahaha….So, we actually left home by 7am this morning! =_=

We were posted to Accident and Emergency Department. Yup…the gross and scary one! Hehe… Really, I kinda like this hospital. I don’t know whether it’s because the hospital is more established since they are the 2nd largest hospital in Malaysia or it’s a Penang factor. I really think the people here are more courteous, efficient and polite! I love the staff here! Or maybe because we are “guests”, they treat us better. Haha…Oh man,  I don’t mind working here in future!

A&E is completely new to us because we haven’t done this posting before. But it’s fun! Loads of new things to learn and more “genuine” conditions to see. The patients are “fresh”. Not treated and we get to see how they actually present to the hospital. Fun!

But it can get quite scary sometimes. With the stress and urgency, accidents do happen. My friend just got poked by a needle today..and yes, the needle was poked into the patient before it poked him. Sigh..yeah…Scared!

We found better food today! Hehehe…and we’re still bumming around for better ones

SUNshine sure misses KL. Hhmm….Distance does make the heart fonder. But it also kills the past. And it sure shows who are the ones you can’t live without, those who care and those who make an effort not to allow distance to be a barrier.

Oh yes…I just got an email from Dalvin. Good news good news!!! More updates about it when I get more details. Exciting times are ahead of us! Hehehe…

More updates when I can…stay tuned!