Alive and well :)

SUNshine has been a little quiet because of this:

Don’t freak out! I didn’t break anything…although this pic did fool quite a number of people Haha…SUNshine has been super busy in Orthopaedics posting. And that’s why she has been a bit quiet on the blog. Oh..to explain the picture, we were actually learning how to put on a cast and remove it. That’s all

Ortho posting was busy, hectic and a lot of new stuff to learn! But it was all good…We had our fun moments and loads of laughter too! Haha…It was also in this posting I was taught by the best teacher! Haha…In my eyes la..I think he’s really the best teacher la…hehe…although he scolded a lot! Sigh…

Anyways…Christmas is really coming! And I can’t believe that we have 5 days off! Aaahhh….

So, what does SUNshine want this Christmas? Well…a lot! Really a lot! Hahaha….I want new shoes..No..it’s a need! I need new shoes that I can wear to the ward! I don’t want clothes this round cos I’ve got 7 new dresses!

Mmm…I love make-up..oh yeah..I need new lipstick! I super want CASH!

But above all…what I’m really looking forward to and I really, truly want this Christmas is to spend time with my family and friends. Especially my friends from CHC. Those who are close to me. Those who have been listening to me whine, complain, cry the entire year! Those who kept cheering me on and told me they believe in me and that I’ll really see the light at the end of the tunnel. Sweet…love you peeps heaps! I really just wanna go makan with you all…catch a movie…go hang out at your place to watch a DVD…window shopping…Christmas shopping…whatever…hehehe…as long as we’re spending time together

I must admit I didn’t personally picked the Christmas gifts this year. But I’m really going broke getting better gifts! Haha…Most of the gifts this year were bought by someone else, suggested and paid by me. Sigh…But my sis and I suddenly had a brilliant idea for next year’s gifts! Hehe…think people will be very happy to get it! A bit too late to do that this year cos we’ve already prepared the gifts.

Anyways….I was just reflecting on 2008. What a year! So many things happened in my life…so many changes and so many valleys that I’ve journeyed through. What an amazing year! A lot of heartaches and pain…but so many lessons learnt along the way. And one thing remains through…He is faithful. And thanks heaps for those who really stood by me and loved me through it all. Your patience and love in dealing with my crying amazes me! Hahahaha….

Anyways, I’ve yet to plan for 2009 yet. My year always begins after my major exam. But one thing is for sure, it’s definitely gonna be a better and greater year! Think it’s gonna be a Year of Launching for me!

Can’t wait for Christmas!

Hip hip hooray!

Yes! There’s finally good news!!!

There’ll be mandatory day-off after on-call for house officers! Meaning…house officers will get the day-off after a 24-hour duty. Previously, house officers work up till 36-hours post-call!

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/12/18/nation/2838435&sec=nation

Our cries have finally been heard! Haha…let’s just hope there’s no “sequelae” of problems arising from this decision..Don’t cheat our feelings ya! Haha….

Learn and do

SUNshine has learnt some lessons along the way in her journey of life.

But some lessons learnt are not easy to practice.

But she knows she better do so or get in trouble again!

So…SUNshine has to do 2 things now:

1. Do not judge

2. Stay away

As long as history does not repeat itself…

Christmas at Chang’s…

It’s my favourite season of the year! It’s Christmas time…

Not just cos it’s a season of gifts, but really..it’s a season of love. A time to just cuddle with my friends and family and a time to be grateful for them.

And thank God SUNshine actually has 5 days off for Christmas! Can you believe that?!! Thrilled!

And of course, City Harvest will be putting up another great performance this Christmas on 24th and 25th December. The production is called “Christmas at Chang’s”. Come join us for a fun, funny, touching story.

An overdue silence

The tribe has finally spoken. The truth has finally be revealed.

Today’s newspaper article wasn’t a surprise to me. Why? Because that’s how my life is everyday.

An article in The Star newspaper revealed the terrible life of housemanship (and medical students also!). http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/12/7/focus/2724546&sec=focus Check it out!

And we wonder why our doctors are making mistakes…we’re overworked! 36 hours with only 1 hour break in between! Come on! On top of that, to err is human…As much as I try to be perfect, I’m sorry to say that I’m not and I never will…Unfortunately, my mistakes can sometimes cost a life!

And I wonder why they are so surprised that more doctors are psychotic now? Just look at our stress! Haha….Work is already stressful, our bosses add to the stress with what they say. And really, you don’t need to shout and scream and intimidate all the time to get a message across. We little fries don’t wanna kill patients either!

I don’t mind being scolded when I make mistakes and when I don’t know things that I ought to know…things that are important so that I can give my best to my patients. But I guess a lot of the intimidation and scolding are not necessary. Eg…How our parents failed to raise us up…calling us dogs…calling us stupid and useless… What does forgetting something gotta do with how my parents raise me up?

Sigh…finally I vent out my feelings! Haha…

But…I must say that some consultants and specialists and my lecturers are superb! I super respect them and I don’t mind getting scolded by them as long as I get to learn from them cos they are so good! They inspire me and they make me feel bad if I’m not giving my best cos I’ll feel as if I’m shortchanging them! Thanks heaps for being my teachers! For taking the effort to drill us because you believe that we are the ones to inherit the healthcare system from you.

And I love my job and I love working to serve my patients everyday. Thank God I’m still a little fry that does not need to make decisions and carry out duties yet. Can still hide behind my lecturers if anything goes wrong…

And I’m one very blessed to have received a vision and purpose in this career. I’ve got a reason to do medicine and I have the priviledge to be called. So many of my friends do not know why they are doing medicine and do not have a vision and purpose to drive them on. That’s tough when things keep pressing us everyday! And I’m blessed to have “a way of escape” when the going gets tough. I have a sanctuary to hide in, a Comforter that is on-call 24/7, a Love that can never be taken away from me. This helps me cope.

Well..sometimes it’s too hard on SUNshine too. Well, I cry when I need to, then I get up and start working again. I also kinda segregate my emotions from my work. With my lecturers and consultants, I maintain a strict professional relationship with them, nothing more. Haha..that way I get hurt less cos things are not personal. It’s all work. Well…there’s pros and cons to this la. But that’s how I cope. However, I do not segregate my emotions from my patients cos I need to emphatize and be compassionate. And yes..I give myself good breaks after I work hard! Real good ones where I can just leave all work! And I’ve got a superb social support (aka my family and church). To all my non-medical friends, God knows how much I need you to remain sane!

Sigh…But I know, ultimately…after all the fire and hell we go through, it’ll all be worth it. One day I’ll be good enough to treat my patients, good enough to give them the best, good enough to comfort, to heal not only physical illness, but to heal hearts. One day, I’ll be a specialist and consultant and make a difference in the lives of my patients. One day, I’ll pass whatever knowledge and skills I have to the next generation.

Sigh…wish I have longer years in med school! Aaahhhh……………