After reading THIS POST from Jimbocyberdoc’s blog, I just feel like writing. Haha…
Kids in puppy love! So cute! Haha…. Sigh… I always wish I’m “young enough” and “immature enough” for puppy love! Haha….One day you go, “I think I like you *smiles sheepishly*”. The next day you go, “I don’t like you anymore!” Hahaha…
Giggles…that post reminded me of my first love story! Haha…
I was 5 years old and I had this crush on a guy in my class who wasn’t even cute! Haha.. I don’t remember why I actually liked him. Hehe…
And we wrote love letters to each other I think. I just remember once when I wrote a letter and hid it under my bed. Lo and behold, my mom found it and asked me what it is. I was like, “it’s nothing! Nothing!” and snatched it back! What a naughty kid! Haha…Good thing she didn’t open the letter!
So, what did I write in there? I really don’t remember! Haha… But I remember there’s lots of “love love love” in there. Haha… Giggles…
Gosh! What has happened to our world today! Kids! Especially city kids like myself! Tsk tsk tsk….
There’s one couple that I admire a lot. And they make a beautiful couple together!
If you’re Chinese and you don’t know Jay Chou, something is wrong with you! Haha… But some do not know his best friend, Liu Geng Hong.
They grew up together, got poisoned together (serious! that’s what Jay said!) , were poor together, wrote songs together and became famous together. They are like brothers! Here’s the proof! Haha…
Brothers forever! Hahahaha….
Eerr…a little gross but oh well…Geng Hong’s wife is there watching..Haha…
And yes….his best friend is the King of Pop in the Chinese industry and his wife, Gorgeous! Vivi is Miss Taiwan 1999 and now an entrepeneur.
Waliao! I super love this wedding picture! Hehe…Gorgeous!
They are beautiful, talented, gorgeous! And they are holy and loving! Did you know that Geng Hong is a cell group leader and he can preach well? I’ve heard him pray before. Awesome!
And did you know Vivi has helped many models and beauty queens overcome depression and hurts? Awesome!
Really looking forward to see both of them doing greater things ahead. And yes…I don’t mind if my husband is like Geng Hong and my wedding picture looks like that! Haha…But first, I gotta be like Vivi right? Not even close! Hahahaha….
She can’t believe this is happening. But she knew there’s a purpose in this and it’ll do her good.
Her 2 closest buddies left for further studies. Her mentors decided to move to another place for their careers. The man that promised to marry her left to work in another place. She was prepared for a long distance relationship and to work things out. But he just wants to call it quits.
While she’s happy for them who left for a greater future, she felt left behind.
They were her closests. What is she going to do without them?
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Her only brother left for studies in another country. And her mom followed along to work in that place. Now her younger sister is moving over.
Her 2 close friends left her and she felt hurt.
Then it was time for her to move to another place to study.
She felt left behind. She’s alone. Her family is separated. But she finds comfort in going back to be with her father every weekend.
But still, she feels so left behind. By her friends, her family.
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The Abandoned Apostle.
2 Timothy 4:9-11
9 Be diligent to come to me quickly;
10 for Demas has forsaken me, having loved this present world, and has departed for Thessalonica—Crescens for Galatia, Titus for Dalmatia.
11 Only Luke is with me. Get Mark and bring him with you, for he is useful to me for ministry.
Demas was a close, faithful partner in ministry to Paul. He travelled with Paul to preach the Gospel. But because he loved the PRESENT world, he left Paul. He left the vision and the calling of God. He lost track of the vision.
Paul must have been so hurt to be abandoned. Till he had to SOS to Timothy.
BUT….He had Luke with him. For every Demas that leaves you, there’s a Luke who will stand by you through thick and thin.
Some people have to go and leave us but their hearts are always with us, but some choose to leave us.
I’m not sure if everyone knows how it is to be abandoned, to be alone, to be left behind, to be deserted, to feel unwanted. It’s painful, it’s tormenting. It’s a human need to love and be loved.
But remember, for every Demas that betrays you, leaves you, forsakes you, there’ll be a Luke who will love you for who you are.
Focus on your Luke, not the Demas. Work on your relationship with Luke and let Demas go. Guess that’s how people move on in life.
To the “Luke”s in my life, God knows how grateful I am for you. Thanks for standing by me when I’m at my best and when I’m at my worst. You know who you are…
SUNshine is in a dilemma! That’s because she was given an offer for a super good deal for HPV vaccination. *HPV is a sexually-transmitted disease and certain strains of this virus is known to cause cervical cancer*
Haha…Other people will decide based on the effectiveness of this vaccine, the price of the vaccine, the safety, the side effects, etc.
But our dear SUNshine here believes in this vaccine but wonders if it is of any use because she wonders if she’ll ever get married! Haha…. And *ahem* SUNshine is holy k! No marriage means no sexual intercourse! Haha…So, it’s not independent k!
One dose is about RM420 in Malaysia and 3 doses are required. You can do that math! I can get the offer at almost half the price. It’s still very pricey but relatively cheap as compared to the original price. This is the advantage of being in a medical school or a doctor! Hehe….House officers here even get free Hepatitis B vaccination!
Sigh…but what if I get vaccinated but it’s of no use if I don’t get married? Wasted right? :S OK…I know I sound kiasu but I’m Chinese k? Can’t help but to do the Math!
I don’t think I’m the type that will stay alone all my life. I’m the family type. Hehe…I need people. I have this fairy tale story in my head of a happy couple and then a happy couple with happy children. Hahaha….
And this series of pictures show my ideal fairy tale marriage. Two people falling in fall, having the same dream/vision in life, same faith and principles in life and loving God, loving people. Then they get married and have kids that grow up that way. And when they get old, they are still as in love with each other. Simple right? Hehe… But I don’t deny many issues need to be sorted out in between.
I wonder if last night’s dream was a sign. Haha…I dreamt I was pregnant and I was at the gynae’s with my husband! And the doctor was doing an ultrasound scan on me to confirm the pregnancy and voila! We saw the embryo sac! Giggles…Too bad I can’t see my husband’s face and I can’t tell who it is. But in the dream, he’s my husband! God! Either too much of obstetrics or God is trying to tell me something! Haha… Early ultrasound scan for gestational age confirmation. Goodness! Wonder if it’s because of my patient! Haha….
Anyways, I do wonder WHY the vaccine is offered to us so cheap. Hhmm…fishy. Haha…when it’s expensive, we complain. When it’s cheap, we’re scared! Haha….humans..humans…
Anyways, seriously, xiang wo zhi yang de, ni hui bu hui, lai ai wo….That song really spoke to my heart. 10 out of 10 people think I will get married. But who will actually marry me? Hhmmmm……
I’m neither desperate nor depressed. Just can’t see it yet…hahaha….Neither am I ready. :S But the vaccine!!!! Argh!
Every night when I go back to the wards, I always tell myself, “I gotta get out of here by 10pm! The earlier, the better! I need to study!”
But my earliest so far surpasses 10pm! Haha…I really love talking to the patients, check how they are doing, see what’s going on and see what I can do.
I’m kinda sad I’ve only got 1 week and 2 days left in this posting.
I seriously don’t mind doing this kinda job for the rest of my life! Pregnant mummies and babies! How wonderful! But it’s really a lot of trouble when things go wrong and I understand why. Sigh…Hope no babies die in my hands, hope no mummies die in my hands.
And I’ve got a jolly happy mummy today! Not my patient but she’s so jolly and happy! Hehe….she was walking so fast it’s hard to believe she’s having labour pains! And she has Prostaglandin E2 inserted 3 times already! *it’s something to induce labour and cause contraction pains*. And she was telling me she’s of course happy cos she can’t wait to have her baby and the faster, the better! Hehe…Jolly mummy!
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After covering my beds, I went back to the opposite ward to check on my “veteran” patients.
CLICK HERE to check out their initial stories. Here’s the part 2 of their stories.
And I’m glad it’s better news this time.
First patient looks better now. Lastest ultrasound scan still shows that little baby in there is small, but so far, she and Junior are fine. But she’s really bored sitting in the ward! Haha….At least 3 more weeks to go! But I told her, I’m happier seeing her, than not to see her! If she’s not there, something not so good probably has happened.
Second patient delivered! Hehe….Now she’s thinking twice about giving her baby away. It’s a different story when you see another human being breathing right in front of you! And that is bone of your bones, flesh of your flesh. That little fella lived in you for 9 months and everything he/she has comes from you! Your blood, your genes, your looks! Sigh…Let’s hope she makes the right decision this time.
And I really wish people will stop screaming at her, blaming her for the past. Yup…bad past! Bad decision! But I wish people will not be so judgmental and just help this poor girl face the future! She has a baby now for goodness sake! Think having a baby helped her think from 2 views: As a parent and as a child. She’s actually thinking of telling her parents the truth and keeping the baby. See how amazing parenthood is? Hehe….
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I’m really loving obstetrics! Hehe….Worse condition to work in, most satisfying job though. Odd….
3 Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD,
The fruit of the womb is a reward. 4 Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,
So are the children of one’s youth. 5 Happy is the man who has his quiver full of them;
They shall not be ashamed,
But shall speak with their enemies in the gate.
When you are a true son/daughter, you are at the forefront to defend when the enemy comes. You will protect the house with your life. Because it is YOUR house, YOUR household.
Whatever is true in the natural is true in the supernatural. When the devil attacks the church with accusations and crisis, will you be at the frontline speaking to your enemy to cut the crap? Will you stand right in front of the gate because you are not ashamed, not afraid?
Touch my family, my church, my spiritual mentors and die! When anyone launch war against any of the above, they are launching war against me!
They hammered Him hard. The nails pierced through His hands. The whip torn His flesh apart. The crown of thorns caused blood to flow freely from His head.
It’s easy to think it was easy for Him just because He is the Son of God. But He was 100% human too. He must have wondered why the pain? Why the scars? Can’t He just die any other way? It only required His blood and life for redemption. Why so much additional pain?
He died as expected. He went on for the final battle. 3 days later He came back with Good News to those He loved most on earth. I wonder if He was disappointed to find that they could not recognise Him. Even when they did, one doubted Him.
His dear friend, Thomas refused to believe until He saw His nail-pierced hands. At that time He knew why so much additional pain. Why the awful scars. Because His scars caused Thomas to believe.
Ever asked God why you have to go through so much pain? Why the scars in your heart? Isn’t it enough to love people, be nice and live a “normal” life? Why must bad things happen to good people? Why must your closest and dearest betray you, forsake you? Why must tragedies occur?
Two great man of God once prophesied over my life that I will not just bring about physical healing to the sick, but also healing of hearts. One is Pst Mike Connell, the other one is my disicpler Greg. I kept those words dearly in my heart.
But from the time those words were given, I realise I go through even more pain, even more disappointments. As if my past wasn’t painful enough! So painful I wish I can rip my heart out of my chest! I wonder, how can someone so broken ever bring healing of hearts to people? If it will help me to be more understanding of people’s needs, I don’t think God is treating me fairly.
Then the revelation came. In the same way, my scars will cause people to believe. That is why scars are inevitable. And the only way to get a scar is to have a cut. And cuts cause pain.
Remember, your scars will cause people to believe. And remember, His grace is made perfect in weakness. When you’re weak, then He is strong in you.
What a painful revelation eh….Welcome to spiritual maturity!
Before CG on Thursday, we went for dinner first. And after we got down from the car and was about to cross the road, SUNshine realised that her feet suddenly hurt a lot! Ouch!
It was stinging! So I took a quick look at my feet and *squeals*, there were several red ants on my feet! And the pain tells me that they are stinging me! Argghhh……….
So I tried squashing them up but too bad it was too late! SUNshine has got real pain and discomfort on her feet already.
So now SUNshine has got 8 bites on her feet and it’s itchy and painful at the same time! Swollen too!
Sigh…I don’t even know how they got on my feet! Yaiks…
Sure hope it gets well soon. It’s really uncomfortable. Now I know why people are so afraid of big red ants!
We just had our new CG right here in Seremban! Aaahh…we are the furthest CG eh? Hehe…
Although we are not an official CG yet because there is only 3 of us, it’s one of the sweetest CG meetings I’ve been to! It was not formal of course cos we’re all good friends and there’s 3 of us. But our disicpline and standard holds! No phone calls, no talking, no sleeping during meeting! Hehe…
During worship, I don’t remember having such a sweet presence of God. I don’t know how to describe it. It’s like…the presence of God is there and you know it. But it’s so sweet because it’s just plain us worshipping God and Him enjoying our worship and coming to minister to us. Nothing fanciful, nothing loud, nothing emotional. Just good rest in the presence of God! And it was…mmm…sweet! And the way my spirit was stirred was as if I’m in church service…much better than a CG that has 30 people but with no spiritual hunger!
I love the way we can talk and share! We’re all in the same boat, having the same dream and vision! What an awesome encouragement! And we all know we will grow. It’s not just gonna be the 3 of us. Logically, it sounds difficult to grow, but deep inside us, we don’t quite see how we won’t grow! Haha…
I love this new beginning! And really…we’re excited! I start to see how what God told me 5 years back is beginning to take place. Slowly but surely. God’s word never goes back to Him void eh?
And meeting the bunch from Moscow lately really shows that. Can you imagine few years down the road when we’re doctors and when they come back to Malaysia? I’m getting goosebumps thinking about it!
Thursday nights are definitely gonna be real fun for me! I really love to see their faces when I share revelations and teach them the Word of God and they go, “WOW!” Aaahhh…..joy! Satisfaction!
God..You are truly good. All the time…. Sweet!
SUNshine is really, really enjoying her medical life and running towards the vision and dream. It’s coming to pass! It really will….
Ai shi jian dan de…. 
