Surprise!

Last night was a happy night. Actually, before service started I knew my members were up to something because I saw them passing something to sign. Haha….it’s difficult to hide from your leaders, eh? But in order not to hurt their feelings, I pretend I didn’t see la…haha…so pastoral…

Then after service, I saw them kecoh, whisper and turning their backs to me. Lagi suspicious! But I really don’t know what they were up to.

 Then they said they wanna go Pyramid. I was like…OK….just don’t throw me in the pool can already. Haha…cos on Thursday, Greg warned me and told me to bring a raincoat. Haha…but I know my members too well. They won’t DARE wet me! They’ll die!

 So, with all the ministry recruitment and heavy rain and traffic jam, my members panicked! Cos the plan is going haywire! Last minute, they had to change their plan! Haha….but I just act cool, watch how they “try” to stay cool and play along their “excuses”. Just went in the shops to look look see see with the girls while waiting for the rest to escape from the bad traffic.

But to add a little fun to it, I purposely tekan them! Haha…kept asking them why are we waiting, do they know where to go, what’s going on? Look a little bit impatient already until poor Karyn panicked and had to S.O.S. Lili. But I control la…didn’t tekan them too much. But it’s fun to see how kecoh they were! First time they plan something without being able to consult me. Haha…..fun!

Then Ms. Organiser aka Lili called Karyn and gave her a special mission. To blindfold me and make me walk to the restaurant! Waliao wei…so embarassing lor! In the middle of Pyramid k? Think I either gotta change my hairstyle or just don’t go Pyramid for some time. Pai seh man…So, poor me. Had to walk by faith and not by sight, guided by a little girl who kept laughing! Nearly langgar tiang. Thank God Kelton noticed that fast enough! Haha…thanks bro!

Then when I finally can open my eyes after being seated (Yeah…I had to sit by faith too. They told me, “Just sit”. Can’t see how to sit?). Aahh….nice. I was facing the beautiful view overlooking Lagoon. But everyone in Dragon-I was staring at us lor. Yor…pai seh! Again…can’t go to Dragon-I in Pyramid anymore.

Then we had to wait some more. OK la…don’t blame them. It’s the traffic jam. Hehe…Then, 6 of them walked in with 6 cakes! Then they sang so loud! Some more wanted to sing it the Chinese version! Wah…pai seh sia! By now…the entire Dragon-I was really looking at us already! But super sweet la my members. Haha…

Then we whack the food! Haha….My members not only need spiritual food, but always need to feed them a lot of food! Haha…

Ooo…the last part made me cry la. They gave me my gift, which they had to climb mountains and swim over the ocean to get. I got vouchers from Culture Couture! Woohoo!

But it’s fun to see them organise and get things done without me. They had a big headache planning this because I’m a CGL famous for surprising members during their birthdays. No cliche allowed, can’t be something expected, I don’t even allow plain birthday cakes. They always gotta come up with something new. Pizza, jelly, ice cream, muffin, brownies. Anything but a plain birthday cake. So, they decided to get me 6 cakes instead! Haha…

Thanks guys for making it so beautiful! You’re the best CG any CGL can ask for.

And yeah…another happy gift. Big ang pao from my mentors, Greg and Jenn. And rumors tell me, I’m the first person they ever give this kinda big ang pao to. Woohoo! Can tell me kids in future. Haha…”Mummy is the first person to receive big ang pao from Vice President of church ya know.” Wahahaha….

I kinda don’t like birthday anymore. It’s natural as you growing older cos you don’t wanna be reminded that you’re another year older. But I must say, this year I’m happy! Hehe…Ooo….more in store on Wednesday? Let’s wait and see.

Loved

I love it when this happens. The feeling of genuinely loving God and knowing for sure He is real and He really loves you.

Throughout yesterday, I was really reflecting and wondering if I’ve regretted what I’ve done in the past and what I just did by telling something to someone. I guess we’ve all experienced this at one point or another. When we wonder if we’ve done the right thing.

Then during worship in service, I felt that life is so uncertain. Situations change, people change. In finances, what if we don’t have enough? In relationships, what if we get hurt or worse still, hurt someone else? In career or studies, what if we fail? In ministry, what if I don’t produce fruits? Even we feel uncertain about ourselves sometimes. Sometimes we shock and surprise ourselves by the way we react or do things.

But during worship last night, I really felt so grateful. That apart from change which is a constant, God is a constant in my life too. He’s my biggest Cheerleader. He’s always there for me. Always. This is a certainty in life.

Having this assurance gives me so much relief. Especially this year is a year of change for me, a year to launch out, it’s scary sometimes. A lot of “what if” in my mind. What if I don’t do well? What if my close friends in KL forget me? What if I can’t serve? What if I’m too busy? What if I backslide? What if things don’t work out? What if…what if…what if…

And Dr Bernard’s sermon today really blessed me again. As usual! One thing really hit me was this. He taught us not to ask “WHAT am I here for?” But ask, “WHO am I here for?”

Think about it. If you’re only concerned with “What am I here for?”, you’re only concerned about yourself. But if your concern is “Who am I here for?”, you have a greater purpose to live for, a life bigger than yourself because you don’t just live for yourself.

And I know my answer. I know I live only for one person and He’s none other than my biggest Cheerleader, my Dad, my Friend, my Saviour. If you’re living and serving for the Creator of the Universe and He takes care of you, how wrong can your life turn out to be? Right?

And yeah…I again fail to outgive God. I know this truth long time ago but I still try. Haha…. I was thinking last night. With my current temporary job (which I didn’t apply for but the company asked me to work for that. Cool eh?), the blessings I got from my CG members last night and a big big ang pao from my mentors (Greg, Jenn) plus Chinese New Year ang pao, God would have blessed me back more than I pledged for building fund! Cool eh? I pledged 5 months of my allowance and I received more than that amount in just less than 2 months! I’m speechless! God, You win again! As always…

Yesterday was really my day. I have the best CG members on earth! I shall blog about it in another entry. So…stay tuned!

So…I’m really grateful that I’m loved. Loved by God, loved by people.

Chloe

It has been 8 weeks since my dog Chloe passed away. We still miss her so much. Sob…sniff…

My new home

I just came back from Seremban. Went there with my parents to check out 2 houses that our friends found.

The houses in Seremban are big and cheap! But they are a little old, so it looks kinda creepy I think. But I’m OK with it. Unless we choose to stay at Seremban 2 where there are new houses but it’s probably about 20 min drive to the hospital.

Seremban is a small town. It’s so fast to get from 1 place to another. I like it that way! Bye bye to traffic jams in KL! Whee!

The house that we might take is actually right opposite the hospital. It’ll probably be a 10 minutes walk or a 2 minutes drive to the hospital. That’s really good. But mmm….it still looks kinda creepy cos it’s big and still dusty. The owner better clean it real well before we move in!

Then my Mom’s colleague brought us to see her Dad’s house that he wants to rent out and brought us around Seremban. How sweet of her! And she brought us to eat the amazingly yummy beef noodle! It’s so so so nice! It’s nothing like anything I’ve tasted before! Yummy!

Think I start liking Seremban already. Just hope I won’t be too lazy to go get food or love the food so much, I eat too much. Hehe…

You guys should come visit me anytime. It’s a nice place to eat. Hehe…but there’s nothing there except for Parkson and Jusco. Amazingly boring too. Hehe…Oh yeah, of course a big hospital. But you don’t wanna end up there, right? 

Now I gotta learn how to get to Nilai from Seremban. Hee…then I’m all set for Seremban! 

Seremban….here I come!!!

Green means grow…

Traffic lights remind me of stress cos they remind me of traffic which can be quite stressful if you stay in a city like KL. We’re famous for our traffic jams!

But now I know an even more stressful traffic light system. It’s to track if our CG actual attendance hits our target. If it does, it’s green. If it doesn’t, it’s red. So…green means GROW, not go.

Stress! There’s a monthly target to hit and a weekly target to hit. And the best part of this traffic light thingie is…my boss will project the chart up in every leaders meeting. *faint*

But it’s all good I feel. While driving back just now, I was thinking the importance of charting and reviewing our own progress in life. Imagine we don’t evaluate or review anything, how do we know if we’re doing well or on the right track? How would we know how to improve?

So…I’m pretty happy with the traffic light thingie. I planned and strategise but my members execute the plan. Not too bad. eh? Not cos I’m mean but cos I’m leaving already. Hehe…

So…to those who have ears, let them hear!!! Hear this blog entry well and good…especially if your initials are CLL….giggless…

When two lovers part…

She checks her watch and indeed, it’s time. Time for him to pick her up to the airport.

21st Jan 2008 was a sad day for 2 lovers cos they’ll be parted for a month or so.

They treasured every moment left together in the car and at the airport but time waits for no man. It’s finally time to say goodbye. He pulled her to a quiet corner for that special moment.

He opens his bag to reach for a gift. It was a small bicycle figurine shaped from wire. The bicycle was unique. It has 2 seats. His reason was, she doesn’t know how to ride a bicycle and he wants to teach her. Then he hands her another gift. It ’s a book written by Joshua Harris, “When Boy Meets Girl”. He’s serious about her and hopes she’ll be ready for him.

Then he asked the sweetest question, “Can we pray together before I leave?”. She was surprised but it was a very pleasant surprise. So, they prayed. After saying “Amen”, with trembling lips, he sang “I’m  Leaving on a Jetplane”. She could no longer holds her tears. Neither could he.

She pulled out a neatly sealed letter she wrote and a CD comprising their favourite love songs and gave them to him. He finally boarded the plane. She was left to go home with his Mom. She’s slowly counting the days till they can meet again.

As she sits alone in her room, staring at the bicycle figurine he gave, tears roll down her eyes. Life seem so different without him. Life seem so quiet, so lonely. The only company she had was “their song”: When God Made You.

 It’s always been a mystery to me,
How two hearts can come together,
And love can last forever.
But now that I have found you I believe,
That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.
So gone are all my questions about why,
And i’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when He created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.

I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,
With all my heart I’ll be there too.
And from this moment on I want you to know,
I’ll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.
So gone are all my questions about why

He made the sun He made the moon,
To harmonize a perfect tune,
One can’t do without the other they just have to be together.
And that is how I know its true,
Your for me and i’m for you and my world
Just cant be right without you in my life

*** Btw, this is a real story…sniff….When the relationship is approved, then I’ll make the official announcement, k? Stay tuned! I know you’re dying to know who they are, especially the guy. You probably can guess who the girl is

I love weekends…

Now that I’m working, I really appreaciate weekends (fine..this is my first weekend after starting working). And I’m so looking forward to Thaipusam on Wed. I don’t celebrate it, but it’s a public holiday! Yay!

Yesterday was fun! Woke up, had breakfast and started baking chocolate chip muffins! I think they “look” nicer than raspberry muffin and taste better but a little too dry this time. Glad my “guinea pigs” who tasted them like it. And my cookies…this time are fabulous! Haha…that’s what my friend and her dad said! Gotta make 1 whole jar for them for new year k?

Then today was a great day too. Glad to pick up a new friend to church although the journey was weird. Poor her…went to the wrong station and the train took forever to reach. In the end, I told my family to go to church first and woke my member up to come pick us up. Thanks Jeremy! His reward was free breakfast! Hehe…

Then it was lunch and then it was time to visit Sam who just had a surgery on Friday. We were so “aunty” trying to pick the right fruits, then go to his house and chat with his family for a while. get well soon Sam.

Then I was stuck cos I didn’t have transport back and I was cracking my head who can send me back. In the end, one Good Samaritan offered to send me back. OK…fine….another member offered also but I decline cos he stays so far away from where I stay.

Then it’s time to cook again! yay! Again…thanks Jeremy for the dumplings! Don’t leave Sabah without trying their dumplings ya. Yummy!

Then I tried designing some notebooks but somehow didn’t have any inspiration. So, it’s Japanese series time.

Tomorrow it’s back to work. Hehe…not that bad la. Just tiring. That’s all. Brand new week ahead of me!

I’m officially addicted!

I’m not only addicted to coffee…but I’m seriously addicted to cooking and preparing food! What’s my problem?! Haha…

I just came back from shopping. All I wanted to check out just now was cooking stuff, baking stuff, cookbooks (oh!!! I really want Amy Beh’s cookbook!!! It’s called “At Home with Amy Beh”), and groceries! Greg say it’s confirmed I’m turning into tai tai, it’s a sign! There’s only one thing lacking now…a rich husband! Haha…if not, I’ll be “si lai”, not tai tai! How sad….

Seriously….since I started working now already, I’m really tired by the time I come back from work. It’s almost 11.00 pm now and I want to bake cookies! It’ll take several hours…. I’m weird! Haha…

So what did I shop for just now? A few notebooks…. hehe… again… to design for myself and someone Mmm….yeah…bought materials to do designing again, as if I got a lot of time and energy hor?

But I love making things with my hands which includes cooking and baking. I feel something that’s handmade is priceless. How can you put a pricetag to it? It represents the person, the relationship between them and of course that person’s love. That’s why I love making things to give away. It’s not because it’s cheaper, ok? It’s not always cheaper….buying good and pretty materials can be quite costly.

OK…need to check how my cookie dough is doing. Hehe….too hard to mould it now. Whee! Baking!!!

Now I know…

Yawns….I’m tired and sleepy (again!)

Now I know…working and serving at the same time is really not easy. It was a sacrifice preparing my sermon this week cos I had to squeeze time during lunch time, in between work, late at night and my sleep time just to check the sermon and prepare the sermon.

I’m still thinking whether I should continue working cos I’m paid peanuts for it and it’s tiring and boring. Haha….OK….they are paying me pretty high for this kinda job, my bosses are amazingly nice (ooo….my boss and GM praised me yesterday and said I’m good! ^^). But well…I can’t help but to think, I can earn from 1 patient what I earn a day now! Fine! I’m not a doctor yet…I calculated…I earned only RM 280 this entire week! Waliao….I can earn that in half a day as a doctor lor…Fine! I’m not a doctor yet…

 Yesterday was a pretty good day but very tiring cos I had CG after work. But thank God, Kelton picked me up, so I didn’t have to drive And CG meeting was superb last night! Our hard work paid off. But above all, thank You God for showing up!

Oh yeah…I discovered something really cute last night. I was rushing to put on my contact lens cos Kelton is always early or on time. Then I wore the wrong pair and then had to change back the right pair. And I didn’t have time to immerse the wrong pair back in the solution, so I left them just like that. And when I came back, they shrunk! So cute! So tiny! Giggles….I measured…it’s 1 cm in diameter! Kekeke…..so cute! Ahem…so remember, never leave your contact lens without solution ya.

I finished work at 3 pm today cos the rest of the staff have to go for a trip! Oh yeah! So happy! I quickly wave goodbye and fly back..I mean drive back before the jam starts.

Aahh…finally the weekend is here! Whee! I gotta go jog now, bake cookies later, then go shop for something for someone, bake chocolate chip muffins tomorrow morning, maybe go visit my member in the hospital, then go for service. Sunday I’m totally free. Finally…some time to do things I want.

But well…work is good la. Makes me useful, not so lazy and helps me experience how it is like to work and serve at the same time. My job in future is totally different. So, it is a good experience now.

Oh yeah..it’s my sister’s birthday today! Suppose to be with her in Singapore today but I’m working. Hehe…ganti balik next month la. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUEY! Gasps….we’re not that young anymore hor? :S

Work work work…

Tired! Hehe…now I understand how it is to be working in the office. Boring! Tiring! Haha….But thinking about pay day keeps me going on! Haha…

But today wasn’t that boring cos I did other things other than calling people and repeat everything I say. Hehe….was so happy with that! They should have that kinda work to rush everyday! Whee!

Another happy thing occurred out of a sad thing today. I shall not elaborate. But I love the liberty I feel from it! Just hope I’m right this time. Two shocking news today but I feel it’s just pure reality. My feelings are so weird now cos I don’t know how to react to it. Not entirely bad, but not good, just shocking.

To serve and work is really not easy. Gotta really find time to prepare sermon, do follow-up, take care of my members, give bible study and go for meeting. The thing you yearn most for is SLEEP! It’s a good thing I understand this

 I should rest early tonight. Tomorrow’s CG will be different. It’ll be great! And I need strength for it. God, I’m counting on You to show up!